So, I am having a rough day and feeling discouraged, then feeling discouraged for letting Satan discourage me...vicious cycle here! The pinch of our severely changed financial situation is driving us to look at all avenues for cutting back. Someone told me of an insurance program here in Florida that covers kids for hundreds less than we are paying. I applied and was apprehensive knowing that we met the income requirements, but one of the requirements was that the children be UNINSURED. We did not think it fiscally or morally responsible to leave our children uninsured, and thought surely the fact that we cover them at a great expense and large percentage of our income would factor in and not make us ineligible. WRONG! I spent almost an hour talking with Ruth (who was fabulously understanding and reminded me that God can take care of my children just like he did hers) from the agency about the fact that we were denied coverage because our kids were already insured. We were offered a policy through the state (costing over $100/month more than we are paying now for their insurance), that if we took it for 6 months, we could then qualify for the $15/month premium. The only kicker is that we have to submit proof of cancellation of our current policy and it could take 2-6 weeks to be approved and covered under the new, more expensive plan, and no, if anything happened to my kids in that gap between plans, I was financially responsible for that. Needless to say, she had a crying mama on her hands at the other end of the phone. I know that God called us here and we were obedient to the call and that He can take care of the details, but some days I just want to go back to being dependent on ME!!! I want to just increase my hours to relieve our financial situation as I have been able to in the past, I want my old fabulous insurance back, I want my friends to be just down the road, I WANT TO HAVE A PITY PARTY...want to come??
So, if you have time, would you say a prayer for Paul and I? This water is so uncharted for us and God is using it to grow and stretch us and make us more dependent on Him...and quite frankly it is no fun. I called Paul (still crying of course) to explain what I found out and he admitted that these times make him want to go find another job without these headaches. We both know that Satan will use anything to make us and our ministry ineffective. Please pray for our protection from his attacks. While you are praying, will you please pray for God to raise up more supporters for our financial team. We are over 80% funded, but haven't made it to the 100% mark yet and it doesn't help the financial worries, especially if we are going to be paying an extra $100 plus for the next 6 months for the kids health insurance. Thank you so much, we already know you are out there praying for us and we so appreciate it!!
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